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Jane is Dead

Kit-Bacon Gressitt

My friend Jane is dead. She had adrenal cancer, belatedly diagnosed — stupid doctor. And adrenal cancer really sucks. What cancer doesn’t? But the deadly cells that take over your adrenal glands and then gentrify every damn neighborhood in your body, one organ after another, they’re a bunch of snotty elitist bastards. I’d rather that someone else have had it, someone I don’t know.

OK, I’m a bitch, an honest bitch. And I love my friend Jane.

Loved her. Love her. Loved her. I guess.

At what point does a dead person enter into one’s past tense? Still, I smell my father walking around a corner and turn to hug the empty space before my heart. Still, I reach for the phone to share with him a newly discovered word, some clever inanity. Oh, not as frequently as I used to, but still — and he’s been dead since 1996.

Jane, she just died, so I figure I’ll be smelling her for a long time to come. I hope so. I hope.

I hope she didn’t know, know that she was actually dying, at that moment, that moment she had staved off with every iota of her will. And Jane’s will is formidable.

Was. Is. Was. I don’t know.

I do know Jane didn’t want to die. She wasn’t ready. She spurned her people’s tradition and protested death with the same passion she protested misogyny, inequity, racism, homophobia, idiocy. She was not inclined to speculate on an afterlife when she had a perfectly good life here and now. So Jane tried everything — and I mean every fucking thing. But money can’t buy you life. Or love. Or being remembered. Jane wanted that, all of it. And she deserves it.

Deserved it. Deserves it. Deserved it. Oh, whatever.

My friend Jane adored the family and friends she loved to kvetch about, with the joy and humor and generosity of a — hmmm, is there a Yiddish word for a female mensch? Maybe it should be “Jane.” She’d have a good laugh over that.

Jane could laugh about anything. Eventually. She laughed when she dropped her bloomers and yanked up her bra to show off her new and improved body. She laughed when the old one found its way home. She laughed when our petite comrade in choice — in the roar of menopause — tried to go nose-to-nose with six feet of angry, male anti-abortion protester. She laughed when we shared sneeze-induced-pee-leakage stories. She laughed when her erotic fiction made me wet. She even managed to laugh darkly at the prospect of burying her HIV-positive daughter. She laughed bawls of relief when that fear took a hike. And she laughed when the cancer reduced her to the size she’d always wanted to be.

And now Jane is dead. Dead and gone. Or not gone. Who knows.

And I’m trying to laugh, trying to hear her laugh, trying to find some black humor that would have made her laugh.

I hang up on the Jane news, wander outside, maybe catch a glimpse of her essence in the sun glittered pool. There’s something—.

But no, it’s a salamander, a slim wee salamander, perished in the depths. I want to save it — screw it, it’s probably too late. I grab the skimmer and scoop up its remains, to give it a proper burial, at least, and I contemplate the lifeless creature, up close, intimate, within smelling distance of its putrefying flesh. Then the little bugger wiggles a leg at me, and I jump as pee runs down my thigh.

No matter. I’m jubilant the salamander is alive. I’ve saved it! I’ve saved it even if it didn’t need saving, and I’ll give it a safe and accommodating home in one of the sodden potted palms, figure out what it eats, name it, name it Wendy, Jane’s middle name. Wendy the salamander.

I shake the now twitchy thing into the plant, squat down low, and stare at it, stare into dark, unblinking eyes — the eyes of those distracted by death, distracted by morphine cocktails.

A gush of sorrow chokes me. I sit down hard and cry.

Jane, she’d be laughing at the pee running down my leg. But she cannot be saved.

My friend Jane is dead. Long live Jane!


Working notes

“Jane Is Dead” is a personal essay, a literary form occasionally spurned by feminist scholars who suggest that it is, well, too personal and therefore inadequately something else. But consider Carol Hanisch’s 1970 essay, “The Personal Is Political,”[1] which was a refutation of critiques that consciousness-raising groups were navel contemplative therapy sessions, rather than meaningful discourse on the power politics of gendered roles and restrictions. She posited that our personal experiences are reflections of our social structures, of our “universal” experiences as women. I’m more aligned with Carol: My reflection on Jane’s death is personal, but the loss of an intimate is a universal experience. Except, perhaps, for the pee running down my leg.

[1] Hanisch’s essay is available on her website at http://www.carolhanisch.org/CHwritings/PIP.html.

About the author

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Kit-Bacon Gressitt has a B.A. in Women’s Studies from California State University San Marcos and is a former editorial board member and feminist columnist for the San Diego North County Times, where her readers started a fan club and sent her death threats, but the sales department loved her. Today, she lives and writes in Fallbrook, California, and her feminist commentary and political fiction are published by San Diego-area progressive news outlets and on her blog, www.excusemeimwriting.com. K-B can be reached at kbgressitt@gmail.com.



For an updated list of works published in TRIVIA, please see this author's contributor page. 


"We are volcanoes. When we women offer our experience as our truth, as human truth, all the maps change.
There are new mountains." (Ursula K. Le Guin, 1986)
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    • Menstruation
    • Merkin Art: A Suite of Pussies
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    • Feminism in the Work of Michele Pred
    • Lucky Girl
    • The Social, Cultural, and Political Necessity of Anne Sexton
    • An Interview with Sharon Doubiago
    • Confrontation with the Rapist
    • Defense Attorney's Lament
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    • Laws of Kissing If Newton Were a Woman
    • Two Poems by Judith Terzi
    • One of the Cronettes
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        • Three Ekphrastic Poems
        • Braids
        • Medusa
        • Who's Coming Along: Denise Duhamel, Maureen Seaton, and Collaboration Today
        • We had rituals we didn't know what for
        • A Brief History of a Feminist Mind
        • Marge Piercy: On Feminism, Politics, and Writing
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        • A Place of Storytelling and Sustenance: Molly Sutton Kiefer's Nestuary
        • When She Was Two
        • Margaret Sanger Speaks
        • A Song for Maman Dantor
        • Listen
        • Abiquiu
        • Changing
        • Barbie at Rest
        • When We Crack, Let's Do It Together
        • Duel
        • Domestic Constellation
        • America the Beautiful
        • Death of a Valkyrie
        • Old Woman Who Grieves War
        • I Read My Death in the Winter Stars
        • Femenina Sube: My Aquarian Age
        • The Straight Mind at Work at the Heart of Queer Theory
        • Journal: In the Bois de Vincennes
        • Landlady Emily Carr
        • Scenario For a New Agenda
        • I Could Do That
      • Issue 15: "Animal Instincts" >
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        • My Pre-Feminist Animal Instincts
        • Our Animal Selves
        • Presage
        • Animal Self
        • Comings and Goings
        • And the Hawk Flies
        • Birds of a Feather
        • Proper Adornment
        • Reverie
        • Algonquin Anthology
        • Sea Stars
        • Immortal
        • Spirit Horse
        • First Cousins: A Suite of Poems
        • Bird of Prey
        • Crows
        • Harpy
        • Snake I Come
        • Approaching the Gate
        • Horses in Winter
        • "Domestic Terrorist"
        • Homeless
        • Displacement
        • The Mornings After
        • Gust of Win
        • Squirrel Dick
        • Cats
        • Frankie
        • Worms
        • Animal Cracker
        • I Don't Believe in Marriage
        • Drawing on the Dream
        • The Cow with a Human Face
        • Orangutans at the Jardin des Plantes
        • Abattoir
        • In for Life
        • I Am Shark
        • Giving Voice to Bear
        • Threshold Crossing
        • The Mark of the Bear
        • Discernment Is All
        • Bears at Midnight
        • The Musky Scent of Bear
        • Baggage
        • The End of Our Friendship
        • Four Mile River Road: 1 Mile
        • The White Dog
        • White Dog/Blue Pearls
        • Baby Dream #15
        • Baby Dream #39
        • Fish Songs
        • Today I Fished
        • The Surgeon's Territory
        • Boudoir Portrait
        • The First Six Months of Survival
        • P for Patience
        • French Pout
        • My Next Girlfriend
        • Winter Solstice
      • Issue 14: "Preoccupation" >
        • Wheatpastes
        • An Editorial: "It's not time to worry yet."
        • Courage
        • Dispirited
        • Voices
        • Falling
        • Sunset #2
        • Cut You Out
        • Brooding
        • Planetary
        • Sleeping. Dreaming.
        • Drama with the Neighbor
        • Woman to Woman
        • The Conspiracy of Chores
        • Murder
        • White Sunset Through a Mesquite Tree
        • Patricia Cornflake's Lesbian Lifestyle
        • Doldrums, Horse Latitudes, and Tropics
        • A Woman Poet's Critique of Words Too Commonly Spoken
        • Memory's Witness
        • Finding Edges
        • Oh, That Bed! That Bed!
        • Mother, Daughter
        • Here We Are
        • Crazy Jane Addams Occupies Hull's House
        • Virtue
        • The Canary
        • White Sunset #3
        • Flow
        • Citrus
        • The Devil Finds Work for Idle Hands
        • Occupy Wall Street Poster
        • The Tent
        • Occupy Me!
        • (post)Occupation
        • The Poison Our Grandmothers and Mothers Drank
        • Hellish Clout
        • Tangle
        • The Bathing Scene from Marguerite Duras's "The Lover"
        • As I Lie
        • The Therapist
      • Issue 13: "Death" >
        • A Feminist Editorial on Death
        • Plucked
        • Chromosomal Geography
        • The Clinic
        • Offal
        • I Have Come to Show You Death
        • The Making of a Peaceful Death
        • Sayonara
        • Sitting in the Lap of God
        • Cycle
        • My Assailant
        • New Jersey Spring
        • Something Missing
        • Triptych: Art Essay on Death
        • The Heroes of Ecbatana
        • Jane is Dead
        • The Miscarriage
        • A Spiritual Death? The One-Eyed Doe...
        • Black Bears
        • Circus
        • The Road to Nowhere
        • American Jisei
        • Nothing to Lose
        • For Linda
        • For Ryan
        • Mindfall
        • Rest in Peace
        • Love Is Stronger Than Death
        • Twins and M/Others: A Survival Story
        • Due Diligence (A.K.A. Cracking Open Her Case)
        • Empirical Evidence
        • Dissociation
        • 27.2727273 Readers
        • The Nomad
        • Manifesto
        • Baby Island
        • Chinatown, Death, and Women
        • Surrounded by Death
        • Where Sanity Returned
        • Whitney
        • In the Shadow of Mumtaz
        • Of Woods
        • The Egg Broke
        • Playing with Dolls
        • Threadbare
        • Because We Must Lose You
        • Clock Time
        • Gynosis One: Samhain
        • The Last Trimester
        • Crossing
        • Tiny Eve
      • Issue 12: "Southwestern Voices" >
        • Issue 12 Editorial: "Southwestern Voices"
        • Trojan Horses in the Desert
        • You Can See the Silence
        • Fleeing Oklahoma
        • North Rim, Grand Canyon, AZ
        • Mobius Arch, Alabama Hills, CA
        • Vasquez Rocks Natural Area, CA
        • Our Lady
        • Mothers of Beauty
        • Talking Incest
        • Desire
        • Tales from the Health Club
        • Three Years Old Watching the Open Sky
        • The Missing Girls
        • It Has Become Our Will: Onward with Adrienne Rich (1929-2012)
        • A Conversation with bell hooks
        • Gertrude Stein, Hitler, and Vichy-France
        • Tinker Tailor Soldier Stein
        • Organic Evolution
        • Eclipse of Hope
        • I Lied
        • First Apartment
        • Translations of Poems by Shez
        • In Memoriam: Christa Wolf
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        • PrognostiKate
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        • To Be Real
        • Matrices
        • Coming Into Word
        • Prince of Paris
        • Ending Patriarchy
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